okaaay. hmmm where to start. haha i shouldn't even be on now. mom thinks i'm sleeping.
anyway umm. i guess i should explain my last post. n-not the meme one. HAHAH OMG IT HAD AN EXPLANATION? sorta, yeah.
so much has been going on with so many people, i've noticed. and it's not just people online. it's outside too. it's like the world spinning faster than ever and there's no stopping it. my only solution to putting a pause to everything on fast forward was to just say something totally out of the blue
which happened to be SNOWPANTS. thank you tom papa.
stressful times are here. and i can tell it's not going to get any easier. speaking from experience, what i'm going through at this moment? haha it's a lot. i'm not going to lie. i have a lot on my shoulders. it's heavy, but you know what? i'm going to get through it.
because.. there's just. so much more to life than worrying about something that happens for a part of your life, y'know? there's so much more to living than worrying. i don't want to worry my whole life. i want to live and enjoy what's out there.
i know it's hard to just say STOP WORRYING EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. because there are times when it seems like it's impossible. things cannot get any worse than this.
but then.. when you stop to think about it.. how will you know? how will you know things can't get any worse? how do you know things won't get better? when you're stuck, worrying about one moment, time stops and you can't move forward. life won't move on unless you do. it's like a spring stuck in a clock. the mechanics can't move if you don't do anything about it.
it's one thing having a problem. but it's another to stand up and work with it. i'm probably a giant hypocrite by saying this, but i feel really silly.
like my money problem for instance. money, obviously, is a huge part of life. but it's not the only thing. there are ways to work with a problem than against it. swimming against the current won't get you anywhere. sure, it's stressful, but that's just one aspect of life worth dealing with.
if you look at the world with eyes half lidded, if you look at what you think is wrong with the place, then you'll never see how beautiful the world truly is. there's much more to this life we have than the problems thrown at us. the sky is so much brighter when you open your eyes to look. the ocean is cooler and the air is crisper when you walk and fly and swim.
hahaha i really hate making it seem like a know it all, but.. i just. want people, everyone i care about, that there were times that i felt like i've been through hell and back. i've dealt with death, dept, depression, you name it. you've seen me at my lowest.
it's just sdkjfh. i know it's easy to say. it's easy to preach and lecture. but that's not my intention at all.
we all have one life. just one. there is no reset, no extra lives, no HP potions or phoenix downs. it's just one. why waste the one chance you have to be the best you can be worrying and being sad?
sing like you're in the center of the stage. dance like you're driven by the fire inside you. spread your wings and fly. fly up and touch the sun. because it's much warmer when you erase the doubt and the fears and the troubles.
let's celebrate the life we have. for better, for worse. we're all here for a reason. it's not to be sad, or to cry, or anything like that. it's to live
beat that drum in your heart. the sky's yours so touch it, love it, embrace it. take advantage of those sunny days. find your sky and fly. fly forever because you can.
savor the moments of the fierce and embrace the times of the gentle. treat yourself to new words and walk the unbeaten path. there's so much out there to capture, so cherish the little time we have. live as if you could live forever.
i love you all. i hope this uh.. XD didn't bother anyone. haaaha.